Darkest, Deepest and Meanest Secrets!

So..

A few days back I narrated ( yeah narrated!) my deepest, darkest and meanest secrets to D. D reacted with awe ( I think so!) bordering on new found respect and declared that I was one of the one most spunkiest people D knew! And immediately compared me to a friend who wanted to become a waiter at coffee day. D says the spirit of adventure is the joy of life! I agreed on all fronts (spared a thought for the waiter though!);)

However the momentary delight I felt vanished pretty soon and I was back to debating the eternal conflict between good and bad within me! Happiness like these are short lived .. almost as effervescent as champagne bubbles! D said that I covered my "unconventionalism" in convention.. But I feel that isn't true.

Over the years I have had many reasons and opportunities to be unconventional and I have wholeheartedly lived up to them. And I know the future would give me more chances to do "same" things "differently"!
The deep, dark and mean moments years back , I still regret.. I wonder wouldn't it have been easier/better to be good rather than wicked, to be transparent rather than opaque , to be compassionate than unpleasant. And whichever way I have debated this I have always wanted to revisit and do things differently ..Maybe ..just Maybe there is one way of doing somethings ..The right way! :) Or as D always puts it the way which keeps your conscious "clean"!

The deep, however has a teeny weeny justification. They stand for my deepest fantasies. You know the devil in me has its uses sometimes!

Though D says that I am forthright enough to come clean with my skeletons,discussing all this has always made me uncomfortable! After all how much can a young head carry. But now that am wiser, sharper and surer! I would rather be newer than older! To face your devils is much easier than letting them wreck havoc in your head.
I want to be the heroine of my stories rather than the Vamp. I say "is that asking for too much" D says " Yes indeed" ;)

So Long: While I get my whiskers trimmed, polish my spear and sharpen my horns!!

-Ria

PS: Pic with the santa cap is the closest I could find to an Angels Halo! The red however makes it look more like a Devil's crown..sigh!